i applaud myself for taking the initiative to say hi during the career talk just now. though it was kinda awkward. haha. i know i shld have said, hi, im cera. but i just said hi and erm waved. which is so weird the girl turned around her before she realized i was speaking to her. and after i knew i shld offer my name but my palms were wet with perspiration i didnt wana shake hands with her. (still did after she asked for my name. lol. i dunno why my thoughts are so stupid sometimes) i find the scene so funny. but the thing is. i took the courage to say hi! lol. sounds like some great feat.

wedding planner job. is a big step. if i took it. though i seriously think i wouldnt really in the end. (and also that i dont think i could pass the interview) will be good if i had someone to talk all these through. i cant even trust myself now cos im just a big question mark inside. gahhh. and then suddenly (hopefully) im employed for 2 weeks. which i feel so sian now. but sure wouldnt anymore once the $ (albeit little) rolls in.