sometimes i wish i could reborn and have a whole swap of personality. because having a personality like mine doesnt seem to be able to survive in this world. (what will happen when i graduate?!)

there is this internship in korea where you're supposed to conduct guided tours speaking in korean in an expo thingy. well 14 people from nus/ntu/smu will be selected and i thought i wouldnt have a chance. basically i saw this:

Job description: You will basically be responsible for conducting guided tours of Singapore Pavilion for VIPs and visitors, speaking in Korean. (Knowledge of Japanese would be an added advantage) You will also be accountable for all public queries with general knowleadge in Singapore, especially in the area of Singapore history as well as environment and water management.


and got frightened off. my friend first sent it to me (supposed to apply on the day she sent) but i just was like ~give up. so after that my teacher sent to the class too and i was just ignoring it. so today was the day of the interview for those who applied as the first batch and according to them. the interview was perfectly fine. there wasnt even alot of korean 'tested' just self-intro and a reading passage. the rest of the interview in english. Well basically i think they're looking at your personality, like how confident and how you could carry yourself. (apparently most of the korean 4 people got stopped halfway reading the passage, i mean like whuttt. that's like natural selection of alot of people already.) ok so rumour goes there were about 50 people applying for 14 spaces and at korean 6, you would already have an edge over the rest. granted, my korean speaking still isnt confident and well but knowing this info i actually thought well. maybe just maybe i could have a chance. anyway. i checked just now and the dateline to apply is over. so i sms the person to ask if still could submit but its silent. i guess that means a no. and im thinking its pretty wasted. so many of them in my korean6 applied for it and if most of them got in. i dunno what to say for myself. i gave up before i even tried. like giving myself the death sentence before the trial. and im pretty upset about it. :( sometimes my personality is gonna starve me to death. how am i even gonna find a job. 


maybe. i should just send in my application just in case its possible. 


and theres another complication. i cant go for new zealand trip if im going for this. (just assuminggg) and ive already set to go with Tanglin.:/