left really early based on the time their perf actually started. and it wasnt a good experience enough that gdtop could offset..so hope ill nv do something as crazy as this ever again..

anyway..had to queue for some 2000fan bands thingy inside the padang so we met at 12. went to eat. came back at 1.40 and the queue snaked pretty long..i actually brought my laptop to watch my movie which i did but dint manage to watch finish..

anyway...its just a lot of queuing and waiting and alot of sun..blaablaa..got our bands and came back to padang stage at 5plus and the queue was lonng again..haiz..i thot it was ok..but no it wasnt..

so anyway..we started standing at 6plus and queueing..but the gates opened pretty late. and the when the gates open there was a few groups of people who simply ran to the front cutting the queue..and end up so many people from the back ran to the front the guards didnt wana let us in...and ALOT OF PUSHING. oh mans..there was a jam. im not sure what the guards wanted us to do. he didnt wana let the cut queuers go in but now its a bunch of people so they cant tell either..so people started pushing inwards (of where we were)...so horrigible...until we got in and went to stand somewhere..and WAIT SOME MORE. i feel like i totally wasted my time..for charice's performance to start...the crowd were good for giving feedback to the artistes but really annoying on their own...

anyway..charice did really well...her voice was really strong!! (only that she didnt come out to the T often enough so i couldnt really see her..was staring at the screen the whole time. it was pretty enjoyable actually...

yea..until the break for the next performer...cos they started the 2nd race...that is a 1.5hrs of MORE WAITING...and u cant leave ur spot unless you're willing to give it up. (oh but naz managed to go toilet and squeeze back in)...and we're all hot and sticky and smelly. this is the only time that being tall is ever really worth it..FRESH AIRRR....not to mention being able to see the artistes la...

10plus everybody started standing and squeezing in..and it got REAL smelly cos we were much squeezed than when charice performed..(im sorry im bugging on the smell cos its like the smell of camps and the smell of touch rugs trainings of which are supposed to be over! unless im exercising). anyway..everybody started squeezing real tight..and finally some music came cheers came but it was just the dj mixing sound...at first i was ok..hyping up...then i got realll bored when he did it for too long..played some 2ne1 songs and blaa but im all like..just get them out already. but they started with seungri..which i should have expected but haha..i was all..slightly disappointed...haha..but i cheered for him!...watching screen all the way until he came out to the T and stood at this nice spot that i could see him fairly clearly...ALL THE HANDS WERE UP WITH THEIR CAMERAS IT IS IMPOSSIBLE TO SEE ANYTHING ON STAGE...well..through those gaps yes..sang 3 songs and out came gd top...TWAS BOUT TIME GUYS..

i was jumping randomly but seriously..still cannot really see...so i had to resort to the screen:((..totally not what i was looking for...some idiot was showing her ipad up which block my entire view. so i could see top's body but not the head..and thankfully for gd's shorter height i could see his face a little...wasnt until they came out to the T that i really saw them...and kept my eyes on them..hahah..but wasnt long...

only during encore..TOP came out to sing...stood at the T facing us..and sang for bout 30sec straight in our direction. YES that was the only thing i felt..this is what i came for....GD came out with his towel...sang and threw his towel in our direction..lol..mad grab...and some of them fell...good thing i was still a little behind...(but seriously..getting a perspiration-soaked towel isnt my idea of a good gift) the first thing ill do is to wash it and just branded it as the towel gd used before..lol..he threw his towel flat so it wasnt that he threw it to a girl. more like to an area where many of them had reach to it..

and yes..IT WAS SUPER SHORT...ended just like that...went to the road saw people waiting so we also waited..haha...and saw the car drive past and i saw TOP waving...heh..friendly top!

anyway...it was like the first real fandom thingy ive done...SHINEE wasnt really fandom-ish cos i didnt even go queue for tix or anything. but this  i really queued for it and the results wasnt all that fantastic. im wondering how those fans have got the energy and time to do this...yes..and anyway..i decided..unless i get the BEST seats i shouldnt go for anything cos ill be so dissatisfied...for all that effort. (probably not ever then:() moshpits are a total no-no. (although u can see them really up close) saw them closer than i ever saw for shinee..lol..my ears went a little deaf. the crowd's screaming decibels sure beats the f1 cars..not to mention the speakers right beside.

the whole time i was watching them im all like. i am so jealous you are moving around. im so jealous you have SPACE to move around...but you are probably perspiring as much as us..haha...good job!

performance was good. conditions at watching the performance: no.

yes apparently my friend was one of those who cut the queue (on the other side though) and managed to get really front standing space. tsk. jealous. i guess we werent OUT enough..if i were at the front..i bet that would have been a different story...not to mention my height is an absolute huge disadvantage.:(

fandom IS crazy. i think itll make a wonderful topic for social psychology. the theories of fandom and idolization. im slightly embarrassed as to the extent i went to see them yet glad i still have some ounce of sense to think its really crazy!

and i always think (when i start surfing videos) GD(and all the others): you're like working 24hours a day (feels like to me) and here i am wasting my time away..yet again..you NEED people to waste their time feeding you..the paradoxical factor. my inspiration yet distraction.

and.

i wonder if there will ever come a day.

where someone would snatch for my perspiration-soaked towel.