lol..even after they went Japan im still on them..quite a feat..considering how my love for Shinee has died down a little...

anyway..just watched finish Big Bang Documentary...on the road to their debut and trainee days...and its pretty touching really...i get reminded of a few things of my own...during Red Cross during talentime days (mostly)...and Touch Rugby in jc and in uni.....
these guys (ok im sure most celebrities too)...they're really awesome...and that fact that they're around my age and have accomplished so much...yet i look at myself and i see a blank past present future there...envious much...

instead of hugely popular celebrities...its like seeing them back as normal you and me...their nervousness each time...their first stage as part of seven's concert..how it might be the last...the hands tgt and cheering thingy...its all so normal...sweat blood and tears...all so familiar...i guess u really deserve all that popularity

could really see their hard work and...the standards were tough..criticisms were really harsh..with constant assessments from time to time...GD is real scary...when the members dont do it right he gets frustrated and oh my...i think ill cry under his scoldings....but that's what makes them so successful.. to be constantly under pressure and with that really strong determination to do well...and i rmb in one video where GD mentioned they actually have to dance individually in front of everyone during trainee days...so everyone can focus on u alone and comment....SCARY MUCH...shows how i can only be an audience..

even at the end..when SR was actually out at first..and they had another chance and they had to pretty much advertise yourself...that passion and want so strong...that's where i fail in regards to my TR days in uni...coach was pretty much like that...if u want it show it! and i cant do that...i cant sell myself just like that...probably also meant that i didnt want it that much after all...gulps...forewarning to interviews in future...

nvtheless...love their interactions and same as shinee ive always liked shows showing their bond and everything..when i thought jc was tough..the thought of fellow friends studying in a group like that made me really happy....seeing them made me wish i had a group of friends spending so much fun time tgt like that...same theme i realise...why i loved FRIENDS so much either...whoa....

they inspire me alot...esp GD..his talent of writing songs hits home...and when i read reports of how even other celebrities are inspired by him too.. how did u do it!

pssst....TOP is as entertaining as he is charismatic...could you go any more attractive? hahahaha