been a rather upset kid these days....its like so many unpleasant things juz wana happen to me at once....first..my files get lost and my sis showed no signs of regrets whatsoever...it may nt be her fault my files are gone but i cant stand they way she acts like its no big deal....like nt even bothering to ask about it....im super irritated about that....its the way how others dun treat wad u bother seriously...and ive been rather upset bout that...and almost giving the cold shoulder w.o being too obvious.....guess thats how i deal with anger....its nt like i wan the relationship to worsen..sometimes its juz like getting the other party to realise the damage she's done and how it affected u...but its also straining on me...its like saying hatred is tiring....and its nt tt i hate the person...juz urgh..im seriously irritated wif u..kind of thing...alvls is also starting to pull me down..which sorta made me regret choosing jc....another thing i cant stand is how adults feel that the only thing to succeed is studying hard...nt tt i can blame my parents for thinkin tt now cos im in a jc..juz wonder why i ever chose this route...its bad enuf noeing i hated studying for olvls...why take on another torture...and another when i go uni...crap....noeing physics mct is a wk away and i have started...and tried but cant seem to succeed....another crap...and today...juz after 2nd period i turned emo again....and my anger will subside soon juz im pretty pissed at yuhui and ice for saboing me...even after repeated rejections..wth....ive enuf troubles wif studies.....wads wif adding to my burden....culdn find anyone to replace me but wth...gotta live wif it rite..juz its so damn annoying to be forced to do something i really really dun wish to...i dun mind getting saboed for things tt i dun find it tt bad...but i do nt like presenting and all tt really much...and its oso like being friends to noe what u wan and what u really dislike enuf nt to sabo u...likewise i gave that cold-shoulder-w/o-seeming to to some pple...and was pretty emo for the whole time...tt treatment tortures me too...cos i dun wan a strained relationship but i cant help it...anyway..after today it will be fine again i guess like always...its like the thing in China about the scandal...when certain things really annoy me....anyway...was also thinkin if my reaction is justifiable..which sometimes make me feel really stupid..wth.....
well..anyway...sch had this launch of sports shirt thingy which i feel is pretty redundant and bias....its like tk...when i was in a ug and all the sch cared about was sports/performing arts..with more emphasis put on sports i feel...and the same thing happens in tj..except im part of the sports grp...but its really bias..unless someone creates something for performing arts and the other clubs and such....like in tk..the sch rallys the pple to watch matches for the sports pple...whoever heard of the sch rallying pple to watch footdrill competitions and such...and many other problems wif ug and the sch last time....now tj's gonna rally the sch to watch matches again...but competitions of the clubs are like nt known to the pple..like b4 competitions..nt after when they announce the winning of the comp or wadsoever...
on to the brighter side....touch rug's been quite fun lately...althou yesterday's training match was pretty bad i culdn score any tries and allowed coach to tri like a million times...(exaggeration)...but still..quite demoralising...but training's fun..learnt new moves and stuff....goals for touch rug: to manage to catch coach, nt let anyone out-run me, breakthru and score, performing a move and succeeding.....tts 4 goals i gotta complete...we culd do pretty ok during drills..but everything fails during the game...so shitty...anyway..on to watch my show.bye